Checking In

Hey Everyone,

It's D----. I am the partner of a sex addict and sexual anorexic. I am healing from codependency, co-sex addiction, and overeating (newly admitted).

I feel better today than yesterday about my recovery. I was fortunate enough to be uplifted by some Drive Time Devotions CDs this morning.

This week for recovery work I completed, well I'm not sure if this was last week's or this week's, Exercise 86 and I began work on Exercise 87 and you can leave me feedback if you want on those if you click on the link in the upper right corner of the page.

Acting out...no. Acting in...definitely. Let's see...eating, check. Negative self talk, mmm-hmm. Fantasy, yes. Avoidance, yup. Computer, way too much. Consequences...NONE. Because my consequences must be self imposed for lack of group participation, I find that I am just not holding myself accountable. And I'm also having an enormous pity party.

Yesterday I felt competitive and then I felt defeated. I was at my mom's and she made a reference about liking my husband again. Then later, a woman that my husband thought was flirting with him came over to have some computer work done by him. The first time I felt competitive and defeated was any time I got into a melee with my sister. She was older and stronger and usually won whatever the "prize" was that day.

My five commandments are all intact. Well, maybe I haven't been calling so much this week. But everything else is good.

My spiritual self care this week was going to Mass.

My self care this week was buying two new pairs of pants that have no hint of an elastic waistband.

What I like about myself today is I got all of my son's pre-op testing completed.