In the past year, the group has become a lifeline for me. We've shared on such deep levels with each other because of the nature of our husbands' (and our own) addictions and our desire to heal and move forward in recovery. I just wanted to let you all know how much I appreciate your honesty and openness with the most sensitive and protected areas of your lives.
At this point in the process of being restored to sanity, I need to give you some information that I was previously holding back on for reasons of shame, fear, and my own unwillingness to admit that my life is not perfect. My eldest son is a homosexual. So is my younger brother.
Some may be turned away by this revelation. That is alright. At least it is an *honest* response.
I know that some of us have had the topic of homosexuality arise in our conversations together. Let me just say, that I do not go back on anything I previously stated. *But,* I love my son. And he is gay.
I am sorry if anyone feels deceived by me. Please know that it was my own issue of feeling judged that lead me to bury the truth. This fear has caused me to become dishonest and phony, not just with you, but with myself. I've juggled my schedule and postponed get-togethers with friends to avoid times when my son is on break from college, keeping him in *my* closet, hiding him from friends who would judge *me.* Ashamed of my own child. Shame on *me!*
So for today, I am trying to walk in truth. For today, I'm abandoning my people-pleasing ways. And for today, I am 100% ready to have God remove these two character defects and to never ask for them back.
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